A little sad.

My dear friends Melanie and Julie are both currently pregnant.  Mel is pregnant with her second and is due in February, Julie her first and is due in May.  The six of us (us and our husbands) are going to celebrate Christmas with dinner in a couple weeks.  I can't help but feeling so sad that they are pregnant and I am not.    PJ is my happiness and the greatest thing in the world and in my life.  I just can't wait to see him with a little brother or sister and I loved being pregnant.  I love being a mom.  I just want my fricking period to come already!  People have started asking when we are going to have another one, and I hate that I pretty much CAN'T get pregnant right now.  Sigh.

I would love, love, love to be pregnant before the year is over.  I have my fingers crossed.  I thought I had some EW or CM or whatever the fuck it is esterday, but I was never good at figuring that shit out.  But if I did, that's good that we had ourselves some sex on Saturday night.   So we shall see.