6 weeks, 4 days?

Maybe.  I'll find out for sure on Thursday!  My first ultrasound is Thursday morning at 9 a.m.  I hate this one though, because I have to drink 32 ounces of water and not pee.  I think I usually only drink about 20 because I seriously cannot hold it that long.  It's excruciating.  But luckily it shouldn't take that long -- but I'll get to see the heartbeat.  Yay!!!

Poor little PJ is still having sleeping issues.  He wakes up around midnight then around 3, and it seems he'll only settle down if he's laying in our bed, which is a problem.  I know I need to stop doing that, but it's hard when I am so damn exhausted.  Tonight, I am going to try and get him to go back into his own bed.  I just can't bear to hear him cry.  I am hoping now that he's gonna be on whole milk, it might help him to sleep better.

Cruising along

Poor PJ is sick.  Has a fever since Sunday.  I stayed home with him yesterday, John today.  Hopefully he can go back to the sitter tomorrow, otherwise I'll be staying home with him again.  But he's still his happy self most of the time, so that's good.

I'm feeling okay -- have to go get a third and final beta test.  The first one was so early the HCG was only 105, but then it went up to 1692 just 5 days later.  Since i have to be at least 6 weeks before I can get an ultrasound or the doctor can tell I am pregnant, I am going to get one more on Saturday and then we should have our first appointment and ultrasound.  Unfortunately, this is the u/s where I have to drink all the water and not pee, and it's so hard and painful for me to hold my pee for that long.   But at least the doctor's office is understanding about this and usually tries to get me in right away so I can relieve myself! :)

Anyway, I think I'll be 6 weeks on Thursday.   I am not putting up a ticker or anything till I get the due date from the doctor, because with PJ I was 5 days off, so I'd rather wait till I get the info from the ultrasound.  We told my SIL on Sunday and she was so excited.  She seriously had one of the best reactions ever!!

Two under two!!!

Week 4, Day 2

So the nausea is hanging around, I'm just waiting for it to be full blown morning sickness.   Going to get a beta test done at the doctor tomorrow, then again on Monday to see about how far along I might be -- in case it's different since I'm still nursing.

So excited to be able to have another wonderful baby in our family. :)

2 Under 2 HERE WE COME!

YUP!!! BFP!!! Tuesday night we were eating dinner, and John goes:

"You know, you might as well just pee on a stick tonight."

"Really?  I can."

"Yeah, why wait till morning?  Then you'll be rushing."

So we finished eating dinner and I went to pee on a stick -- well pee in a cup, to insert the stick into, because lord knows I am NOT coordinated enough to actually pee on the stick without peeing all over my hands.  PJ and I went to talk to John in the kitchen.

Go back in the bathroom.  Still an hourglass.   Wait a few seconds.  Back to the kitchen.

Repeat.

Repeat -- wait.  OH MY GOD.  It says PREGNANT.  PREGNANT.   Really?   I could not believe it.  I mean I wanted it, but I was shocked it happened so fast.  John kept saying, "the 'not' just hasn't shown up yet.  I just kept staring at it so excited.

"PJ!! You're gonna be a big brother!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

And we have a crawler/cruiser! and we're 12 DPO

So all in the same weekend, PJ decided he wanted to start cruising -- AND crawling on all fours!  Funny that when he's about to get ready to start walking he decides he wants to crawl on all fours, but that's okay.  I was perfectly content with him skipping crawling and going right on to walking but now it looks like we have a multiple mode transportation PJ on our hands! :)

So I get to POAS on Wednesday.  I am soooo anxious.   I still feel nauseous, but it could just be coincidence.  I've already starting giving myself reason to be glad if it's a BFN.  I'll accrue more vacation time.   I'll be able to go back to work in end of January instead of right after the holidays.  Etc, etc.   Wednesday can't come soon enough for me!! 

We saw little miss Raewyn last night, and she's just so tiny and little and new.   You forget how little your baby was when they've gotten so big and independent.   It's easy to forget how there was time where when I put PJ down, he was exactly where I left him when I got back.   There was a time when his cry was so little and that was the only noises he made really.  And of course there was the time where my boobs were so huge I thought I was going to keep over from the extra weight in front. 

But I want it all back.  Every second of it.

Being nauseous sucks.

Especially when it's not for a good reason.  I've been nauseous for about a week now, and today I just feel so icky.   I am not sure what to eat because I really don't want to throw up again.  Hopefully there's a good reason behind it.    I didn't get much sleep last night and PJ was especially irritable, which was very helpful when I feel like I might vomit at any minute.  I was gonna start our new sleeping method for him last night, but I just couldn't deal with it considering how I felt.  And it looks like tonight isn't going to be much better.

PJ climbed the stairs.

Oh yes.  All 5 stairs at my parents house -- like he's been doing it his whole life.   He's so adorable.  It's too much to stand sometimes.

So even though I KNEW there was no possible way I'd get a BFP, I POAS last night.   I AM SUCH A LOSER.  I called it my practice run.  Hahahahahha.   I did not inform my husband because he would have yelled at me about wasting money, etc, etc.  But now I can wait until I am SUPPOSED to POAS, which is February 3.   Or maybe the 2nd.  It all depends on how long I can hold out.